ive been in a slow downward spiral for quite some time now. my emotional and mental health is lacking these days. videogames provide such potent escapism that i dont alow my self to think on it,and ive been unemployed for a good year. the overt feminism i display is in fact born of my desire to not want to seem weak compared to my male counterparts,and because i have such a competative nature i want to be better than them. i sometimes feel like ET in that atari game where you fall in the hole and cant get out. people have thrown me ropes but i was content and didnt pull myself outnow those ropes are slowly disapearing.
it feels good to get that out of my system. i only hope soon i can begin to pull myself out.