Maxx, I hope that by the end of this you don't feel like you wasted your time with a game you have some personal problems, or whatever.
Years ago I almost went through the same with VIII and X. I never got around to finish either of them because as much as I tried to genuinely like those two games, they were simply not for me when all was said and done.
The whole noise with the XIII series and SQEX is settled on my end. And the most I get out of what SQEX does nowadays is seeing their line of Play Arts Kai figures. I feel that I got enough of their games and fans for a while.