I don't have any irl friends. This isn't hyperbole. My mom's the only person I feel any sort of connection to and even that's mixed with antagonism.
It's like, I have people that I interact with on a daily basis and I can't meet them with anything more than ambivalence, at best. And this is every. Single. Da. For the past three years. It gets to you. I don't even feel like I can relate to or engage with people in a normal way anymore. Like, I can't read them.
This sounds as depressing as the girlfriend thing we posted about a while ago.
Most of my friends left and are scattered far away.
I had a very good friend that was still here but he died.
Without that, I have people 'I know' but they aren't what I'd consider friends.
There's my mom and my dad.
I don't even really talk/see my brother much. We've never been close.
It's really hard to make good friends. I'm not even sure if I have the capability to make that kind of friendship as an adult.
I should create a 'friending site'. Like a dating site, but you're looking to find a local best friend.
(I want to see ads on website: FIND OUT ALL THE LOCAL - POSSIBLY HOT - GOOD FRIENDS - WITH NO BENEFITS - IN YOUR AREA !