WARNING! WARNING! A BLATANT PLEA FOR MORAL SUPPORT IS ABOUT TO BE LET LOOSE!
Well guys, in the wake of my "lets quit sweet n' low" experiment I have determined that I must give up the "taste" of sweet. I have come to the conclusion that I am highly addicted to sweet tasting things and (strange or simple as it may seem) it is the root of great strife for me. This effort is irrelevant in regard to weight (as by anyone standards I don't think a full grown adult male of 125-130 lbs needs to lose) and is purely in the interest of better cognition and saving money.
I never really looked at how disrupting the "tasting of sweet things" is to my life (and wallet). Upon examination I came to some startling conclusions...
1.I spent well over 100 dollars on non-nutritional food items in the last 3 days (things I didn't need but just simply wanted because they were sweet).
2.I will literally not consume meat, vegetables or ANYTHING if I can't sweeten it somehow.
3. I will and am late for things because I can't stop drinking sweet coffee.
4. (Dumb as this may sound, it is the most disturbing point to me) I watch less anime then I have in the past and play less games to acomodate my sweet coffee habit.
5. I drink 1 gallon of almond milk a day or more. If I don't sweeten it, I don't even want a single glass.
6. I find myself distracted by the thought of sweet things at the most odd times, this is becoming too frequent to point of almost constant. While I am tattooing, playing games, running, drawing, driving... you name it.
I can go on but you get the idea. I am very distressed over this situation. While I am happy and hopeful at the prospect of making a positive change in my life... I FEEL FREAKIN' WEAK AT THE KNEES OVER IT!!!
I don't know why I am even posting this crap... I just feel like garbage over the whole thing and needed to vent I guess. As I have expressed in the past, this is my preferred social outlet and I have somehow come to identify you all as my friends... As such, you must put up with my ellipses and whining-LoL
But seriously, I feel so down about all this it isn't even funny. I could have paid my electric bill, paid off soul hacks and pandoras tower, probably watched a entire season of anime and easily have beaten persona 2 IS in the last 14 days if I wasn't "sweet" addicted.
The kicker? Because of my limited diet I can only have certain things that aren't always the easiest to find... the other night at 2 am I drove over 40 miles to buy one of my "sweet treats" because my local store was sold out... as I was counting change to fill my tank and drive back ( because I spent all the cash I had on me to stock up) the thought occurred to me " Klyde... there is something wrong here..."
On the upside, it only took about 1 full day to stop seriously craving the sweet n' low so I can't imagine this being too bad...